Believe in what you feel inside

I was thinking about something today, and it of course had something to do with Harry Potter. I was just thinking about one thing that I wish I could do over, and it isn't anything really big in my life, it isn't a mistake, but it is rereading Harry Potter for the first time - screaming at the pages when something doesn't go how I want it to, sobbing over character deaths (RIP Sirius <3), shouting in exuberance when Harry and Ginny FINALLY get together, trying to figure out exactly who the Half-Blood Prince was before the end of the book...etc. etc. I think that would be such a great gift, to re-experience it all again. Because I just don't think anything else will ever come around that I'll love so much, and be this passionate about again. And it makes me so sad to think that, in two years, it really will be over. No more books, no more movies. Just fanfictions and wizard rock. I hope Jo writes an encyclopedia.

Title: The Not So Perfect Beginning

I just joined a new community, hogwartsishome which is a sorting community where you can participate in tons of fun stuff including writing challenges, graphics challenges, in-house activities and member-exclusive activities. It looks like it's going to be a lot of fun, so if you'd like to join me over at HiH, head over to platform_934 and get sorted!

(I was sorted into Hufflepuff)

Absolutely. I'm very introverted in RL and generally just keep to myself. Unless I know someone really well. And that's when my personality is the same - I'm outgoing and even loud and goofy. I state my opinion more willingly, for sure, online.

Okay, so uhm...yeah I decided today that I would like to try ScriptFrenzy, despite the fact that I have sucked so badly at NaNo. And I didn't think I'd have time, but then I realized it in April, so that should be okay. I think I even have a plot, I'm just not sure if it'd work for a 100 page screenplay, or if it'd be better as a short. But we'll see what happens.

Okay, so I'm stealing this from tangerine_tart because it's fun. :)

1. Provide pictures and the names of 3 people.
2. Label which you would Marry, Fuck, and Kill.
3. Comment to this and I will give you 3 people.
4. Post this meme with your answers.

That's easy - this past Saturday. Or maybe a certain week in July 2007. Any day with the YouthWrite gang.

SO, I would really like to get back into LOST. I was a huge fan in season two, and semi into it in 2, and even less in 3, so I sort of know what's going on. Except that I'm so behind in it this year. Would anyone mind doing a quick recap of the end of season 3 and what's happened so far in this season? I would really appreciate it. :)

"Theriouthly"

It was a YouthWrite expression, because at one of the BEEG Show's the supers sang a version of "Hey There Deliliah" that was "Oh Theriouthly" ("Ohhh theriouthly, ohhh theriouthly. Theriouthly.") So for the entire week everyone was going "Theriouthly? Theriouthly. No, Theriouthly?"

Favourite book of the series?: I don’t really have one…but it’s between Order of the Phoenix or Half Blood Prince, I guess.

Favourite movie of the series?: Prisoner of Azkaban

Favorite chapter from your favorite book: Well, it’s not from the same book, but the Tale of the Prince chapter in Deathly Hallows (I think that’s what the chapter’s called…)

5 Favorite Characters:
1. Severus Snape
2. Sirius Black
3. Lord Voldemort
4. Mrs. Weasley
5. Fred and George Weasley

3 Least Favorite Characters:
1. Lavender Brown
2. Pansy Parkinson
3. Goyle

Favorite member of the Trio: Hermione

5 favorite quotes:
Oh gosh….uhm…
“Not my daughter, you bitch!” – Mrs. Weasley
“To the well organized mind, death is but the next great adventure.” – Dumbledore
“Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, when one only remembers to turn on the light.” -Dumbledore
"Yes, it is easy to see that nearly six years of magical education have not been wasted on you, Potter. 'Ghosts are transparent.'" –Snape
“It is not our abilities that show what we truly are. It is our choices.” -Dumbledore

3 Favorite magical creatures:
1. Centaurs
2. Animagi
3. Werewolves

Favorite family:
The Weasleys <3

Favorite villain:
Lord Voldemort

Favorite Death Eater:
Severus Snape, or Bellatrix Lestrange

Favorite non-Hogwarts magical building:
The Burrow.

Favorite Diagon Alley location:
Weasley’s Wizard Weezes

3 Favorite Spells:
1. Accio (because it would be so darn handy!)
2. Alohamora
3. Lumos

3 Favorite Potions:
1. Felix Felicis
2. Veritaserum
3. Ten-Second Pimple Vanisher (how handy would that be!)

Favorite Unforgivable Curse:
Imperio

Favorite Department of Mysteries Room:
Either the Hall of Prophecies or the room where Sirius died.

Biggest surprise:
Snape actually being a good guy. I was convinced until the very end that he was a bad guy (even though I should’ve known that with JKR, everything isn’t as it seems). Now I love him.

Biggest letdown:
Fred dying! *sob!* And Tonks! And Doby! And…I could go on. v.v

Favorite kind of transportation:
Apparation would be handy, but I think I would get sick. So broom I think.

Favorite Weasley:
Molly.

Favorite Order member:
Sirius.

Favorite pet:
Hedwig

One character you'd bring back to life:
Only one? Sirius.

Moment that will always make you cry:
Sirius’, Dumbledore’s or Severus’ deaths.

Favorite Hogwarts room:
Gryffindor Common Room.

Favorite class:
Charms.

Favorite teacher:
Flitwick.

Favorite DADA teacher:
Lupin – was there really any other one? Really?

Least favorite teacher:
Umbridge! UGH!

Favorite non-human Hogwarts resident:
Sirius.

Favorite Hogsmeade location:
Honeydukes.

Favorite Triwizard Champion:
I didn’t really like any of them that much. But Harry, I guess. Fleur whines to much, Krum comes across as being dumb, Cedric is too much of a pretty boy.

Favorite Triwizard Task:
The dragon!

Which character you'd ask to the Yule Ball:
Draco Malfoy. Or at least, I’d like to think I would. But in reality, probably Seamus Finnagan.

Which character you'd like to use a love potion on:
Draco Malfoy.

Which character you'd like to use Veritaserum on:
Bellatrix Lestrange.

Favorite wizard rock band:
MINISTRY OF MAGIC!

Character you're most like:
Neville, probably.

House you think you'd be sorted into:
I’m a Puff through and through.

Your patronus would be a:
Horse. Maybe.

Your boggart would be:
The Unknown. However that’d be shown.

To you, Amortentia would smell like:
Ohhh good question. *ponders* No, I have no idea.

You'd use Felix Felicis to:
Get an A in English.

What job would you most like to try:
Quidditch player. Or Auror.

Which would you rather see - a sequel or a prequel:
Prequel – I wanna know more about the Muruaders and Snape!

Favorite movie set:
Hogwarts

Favorite movie scene:
The Shrieking Shack, or maybe where the Basilisk was. No, The Great Hall.

Which of the Deathly hallows would you most want?
Initially, I would have said the stone, but knowing more about the Hallows now, I’d say the Cloak.

EITHER/OR

Floo Powder or Broom: Broom
Bernie Bott's Every Flavor Beans or Chocolate Frogs: Chocolate Frogs
Death Eaters or Dumbledore's Army: DA
CAPSLOCK HARRY or Emo!Harry: Ew.
The Ministry of Magic or Gringotts: The Ministry of Magic (I don’t like Goblins)
Sirius or Lupin: Hey, no fair! I love them both! *pouts* Uhm…Sirius.
Occlumency or Legilimency: Legilimency. Dead useful.
Animagus or Metamorphmagus: Metamorphamagus.
Mermish or Parselmouth: Mermish. I HATE snakes.
Draco or Lucius: Draco.
Peter Pettigrew or Mundungus Fletcher: James. (ha!)
Whomping Willow or Flying Ford Anglia: Flying Ford Anglia
Invisibility cloak or Pensieve: Cloak
Grimmauld Place or The Burrow: The Burrow. Grimmauld Place is creepy…and Sirius lived there, it’d be said.
Werewolf or Inferi: Werewolf
Herbology or Care of Magical Creatures: Care of Magical Creatures
Professor Binns or Professor Umbridge: Binns! I would never choose Umbridge! At least you could sleep in Binns’ class.
Yule Ball or Quidditch Championship: Quidditch. Even if I do like me some dances. But Quidditch would just be so fun.
Peeves or Nearly Headless Nick: Nick, of course.
Hippogriff or Thestrals: Hippogriff
Durmstrang or Beaubaxtons: Beaubaxtons
S.P.E.W or the Inquisitorial Squad: S.P.E.W.
Three Broomsticks or The Leaky Cauldron: The Three Broomsticks.
Portkey or Apparation: Apparation

I am taking this idea from alliana07   but expanding it to see how many movies I watch in a year. I expect it will be a frightening number.

2009 Book List

1. The Lord of the Rings The Fellowship of the Ring – J.R.R. Tolkien
2. The Tales of Beedle the Bard – J.K. Rowling
3. Jane Eyre – Charlotte Bronte
4. Paradise Lost; Books 1, 2, 10 – Milton
5. Of Mice and Men – John Steinbeck
6. Star Wars Legacy of the Force Invincible - Troy Denning (in progress)

 

2009 Movie List

1. The Illusionist
2. Anne of Green Gables: The Sequel
3. The Dutchess
4. Star Wars Episode I: The Phantom Menace
5. Titanic
6. The Cabinet of Dr. Caligiri
7. Factory Girl
8. Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man’s Chest
9. Nanook of the North
10. Pride and Prejudice
11. Snow White
12. The Maltese Falcon
13. The Bicycle Thief
14. Rebel Without a Cause
15. Becoming Jane
16. The Dark Knight
17. Zack and Miri Make a Porno
18. Moulin Rouge
19. Sweeney Todd
20. Slumdog Millionaire
21. Batman
22. Hellboy
23. Bretahless

I just wanted to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas!

Because I probably won't be online between now and Christmas.

I just found a BRILLIANT fanfic (though I'm not sure I should call it a fanfic...it's not exactly a fic...) via ravenna_c_tan ! It's called The Death of Narcissa Black and it is just AMAZING. It's a little dark, but don't worry, there's no rape, incest or anything like that. It's not too bad. It's just...oh it's amazing. You need to go read this!

The Death of Narcissa Black

Today,Mugglenet published a challenge to Harry Potter fans to write about their Sorcerer's Stone story (or, in my case, seems as I'm Canadian, it would be Philosopher's Stone), and I decided to do that just for shits and giggles.

Hey everyone! I've got two new fics for you here! Woo!

Title: Dance Dance
Fandom: Harry Potter
Characters/Pairing: Draco Malfoy/Ginny Weasley
Rating: PG-ish (I'm rotten at figuring out what to rate them)
Word Count: 508
Teaser/Summary: Her head tilted upwards and brown eyes met grey. It suddenly seemed to Draco that they were alone in the room. He was totally enveloped by her gaze; it took him in and dragged him further under her spell. He hardly noticed that he was dancing, except that he felt his heart racing, felt her body sliding against his.
Notes: This was inspired by the song Into the Night by Carlos Santana feat. Chad Kroeg

( She had fire in her soul, it was easy to see how the devil himself could be pulled outta me )
Title: Sexual Education
Fandom: Harry Potter
Characters/Pairing: Sirius Black and Harry Potter
Rating: PG
Word Count: 693
Teaser/Summary: Sirius gives Harry "The Talk".
Notes: This was just really quickly written after a conversation with a bunch of people from YouthWrite. Someone had mentioned that it had to have been Sirius who gave Harry the talk, and how humorous it would have been to sit in on that chat. I hope I did it justice.

( Harry, when a wizard loves a witch - or, or another wizard... )
I still haven't decided if I should post some of my older stuff. Well, not really older...just...you know, the stuff that's not posted here. XD If you guys want to read some more HP stuff (or even Star Wars - I have some Star Wars too) let me know and I'll post some.

Stolen from 

awritersfantasy 's writing journal/community scribedenigma.

1. Do you write fiction or non-fiction? Or both?

 

 Fiction. I’ve only ever written non-fiction for school.

2. Do you keep a journal or a writing notebook?

I have a writing notebook that has the information on my novel, which died sometime last year. I have this journal, where I hope to start posting fanfics again, and I have Sith Happens, my website, where anything halfway decent that I've written is posted.

3. If you write fiction, do you know your characters’ goals, motivations, and conflicts before you start writing or is that something else you discover only after you start writing? Do you find books on plotting useful or harmful?

It really depends on what I'm writing. If I write fanfics, obviously I should know the characters and the general plot, but I never plan anything out - in fanfic or original. In original stuff I don't usually know a whole lot about the character, because even if I decide that how a character is going to be, they end up differently. So I put the basics down - history, etc - and leave the personality to the basics, if I do it all and just write. It's part of the fun, discovering the characters.

4. Are you a procrastinator or does the itch to write keep at you until you sit down and work?

I agree with

awritersfantasy, it really all depends on the day and my mood. Somedays I just can't wait to write, others I want to write, but I usually procrastinate to do it.

 

 5. Do you write in short bursts of creative energy, or can you sit down and write for hours at a time?
Well this depends as well. If I'm distracted that day, or not particularly creative-feeling, or stuck on a plot, it'll be in short bursts. But if I'm really into something I can sit for hours and write and not even realize its been hours.

6. Are you a morning or afternoon writer?
None of the above. My inspiration comes to me at night, when I'm laying in bed trying to fall asleep. Because then I don't have other things on my mind and its just so freeing. Of course, that usually means that I have problems sleeping because I'm so busy exploring the idea I have, unless I block it out. Which I rarely do.

7. Do you write with music/the noise of children/in a cafe or other public setting, or do you need complete silence to concentrate?
I can't have any noise except for my music on. If the tv's on, I find I'll be paying attention to that, rather than my writing. If people are talking, I can't block them out. But if my music is on, its just kind of there to keep me focused, gather inspiration from, but not actually listen to.

8. Computer or longhand? (or typewriter?)
Computer, definitely. I rarely write in my journal, unless its poetry or an idea I get when I have my journal around, and not my computer.

9. Do you know the ending before you type Chapter One? Or do you let the story evolve as you write?
I know the ending, usually, but not the stuff in the middle. Which is a problem, because I usually just get stuck in the middle and not know how to get to the end.

10. Does what’s selling in the market influence how and what you write?
Uhm...I would like to say no, but yes it does. And I hate it. I mean, the whole reason my novel died was because my hero, Timothy J. Anderson gave me all these new ideas because he thought it would sell better, and then I just couldn't figure out how to incorporate them, and it died. And it makes me sad, because it was a great idea! (What's worse, is that he asked me how it was going in July and I was like "Uh...it's not." And he gave me this look that was obviously giving me hell for not writing it. I guess he liked the idea too.)

11. Editing/Revision - love it or hate it?
HATE IT. I mean, when I'm writing I usually edit a bit, but I hate going back afterward and editing it. Because I don't do it right away, so then I'm just like "Ugh I don't wanna, I just want to keep writing it." so it's always really hard for me to edit.

Stollen from Max (kari_hermione) 

Appearance:
I am 5'4 or shorter.
I think I'm ugly sometimes.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different colour. (sometimes)
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/I've had braces.
I wear glasses.
I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free. (depends on the day)
I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings.
I have piercings in places besides my ears.
I have freckles.

Family/Home Life:
I've sworn at my parents
I've been kicked out of the house.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday. (I want to adopt...maybe)
I have children.
I've lost a child.

Embarrassment:
I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've snorted while laughing.
I've laughed so hard I've cried.
I've glued my hand to something. (hot glue and paper...owie)
I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I've had my pants rip in public.

Health:
I was born with a disease/impairment. (asthma)
I've had stitches.
I've broken a bone.
I've had my tonsils removed.
I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I had a serious surgery.
I've had chicken pox.

Travelling:
I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
I've been on a plane.
I've been to Canada.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've been to Japan.
I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I've been to Europe. (In May!!!)
I've been to Africa.
I've been to France. (Is France not part of Europe?)

Experiences:
I've been lost in my city.
I’ve seen a shooting star.
I’ve wished on a shooting star.
I’ve seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out in public in my pajamas. (Camp...)
I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I've been to a casino.
I've been skydiving.
I've gone skinny dipping.
I've played spin the bottle.
I've crashed a car.
I've been skiing.
I've been in a play.
I've met someone in person from the internet. (whyistherainbow)
I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I've seen the Northern Lights.
I've sat on a roof top at night.
I've played chicken.
I've played a prank on someone.
I've ridden in a taxi.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I've eaten Sushi.
I've been snowboarding.

Relationships:
I'm single.
I'm in a relationship.
I'm available.
I'm engaged.
I'm married.
I've gone on a blind date.
I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I've been divorced.
I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality:
I've had a crush on someone of the same gender.
I've kissed a member of the same gender. 
I've had sex with someone of the opposite gender.
I've had sex with someone of the same gender.
I've had sex with more than one person at the same time.
I am a cuddler.
I've been kissed in the rain.
I've had sex outdoors.
I've hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.
I have had sex with a stranger.

Honesty/Crime:
I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world. (my family)
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've cheated on a test.
I've run a red light.
I've been suspended from school.
I've witnessed a crime.
I've been in a fist fight.
I've been arrested.
I've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol:
I've consumed alcohol.
I smoke cigarettes. (gross!)
I smoke pot.
I regularly drink.
I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
I've done hard drugs.
I've been addicted to an illegal substance.
I take cough meds when I'm not sick.
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.

Mental health:
I have been diagnosed with depression.
I shut others out when I'm depressed.
I take anti-depressants.
I have an eating disorder.
I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
I've hurt myself on purpose.
I'm addicted to self harm.
I've woken up crying. (nightmare)

Death:
I'm afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I've seen someone dying.
I have attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has committed suicide.


Random:
I can sing well.
I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others too easily. (online, yeah, offline, nay)
I watch the news.
I don't kill bugs.
I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for sake of being able to rhyme.
I curse regularly.
I sing in the shower.
I am a morning person.
I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
I'm a snob about grammar.
I am a sports fanatic.
I play with my hair.
I have/had "x"s in my screen name.
I love being neat. (wish I was more neat)
I love Spam.
I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
I bake well.
My favorite colour is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
I don't know how to shoot a gun.
I am in love with love.
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. (I hate that!)
I laugh at my own jokes.
I eat fast food weekly.
I believe in ghosts.
I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
I am really ticklish.
I love white chocolate.
I bite my nails. (only when they are rough)
I play video games.
I'm good at remembering faces.
I'm good at remembering names.
I'm good at remembering dates.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
My answers are totally honest.

I just joined  fandom_memesand decided I needed to plug plug plug it, and then post my first meme!

1. If you write, fandoms you have written/are writing/plan to write and favorite ships.
Harry Potter, I write tons and tons of Harry Potter, and I am writing some Lily Potter the second/Scorpius Malfoy fics for 7spells (if my claim gets approved, that is) and some Draco/Ginny because I just love them. I've also written Star Wars, but that was with all my own characters.
2. Fandoms/Pairings you are ADDICTED to at the moment: 
Draco/Ginny, Draco/Harry/Snape (I blame it all on ravenna_c_tan), Draco/Pretty much Anyone
3. Fandoms/Pairings you like, but aren't necessarily obsessed with:
Sirius/Lucius, Harry/Ginny, Ron/Hermione, Hermione/Blaise, Sirus/anyone
4. Fandoms/Pairings you're new to, but enjoying:
Draco/Harry/Snape, Hermione/Blaise, Sirius/Lucius
5. You can chose one non-canon pairing you love to become canon (in a good way that the writers don't screw up). Who do you pick?
Draco/Ginny (even if they wold never actually work...)
6. You're only allowed to read fic from one fandom (any pairing) for the next three weeks. What fandom do you choose? 
Easy - Harry Potter
7. You're allowed to refer to your favorite ship only by a shipper name. What ship is your favorite and what would you name them? 
Draco/Ginny...Drinny? Ginco?
8. Two of your fandoms are going to collide in a spectacular crossover. Which fandoms would you pick?
hmmm...Harry Potter (obviously) and Lord of the Rings, just because it would be interesting.
9. You have to choose between reading bad porn about your fandom obsession of the moment, or no fic at all. What do you pick? 
Reading bad porn.
10. You're asked to pick a theme song for one character/ship. What song do you pick, and for whom? 
When You Say You Love Me - Josh Groban, Harry/Ginny
11. It's 2 in the morning and you should be doing math homework. What kind of fic do you read instead? 
Oh, Draco always manages to distract me in the wee hours.
12. The ship that makes you go "Awww" is...
Well it all depends on the story...but there are some really great Harry/Ginny ones out there.
13. The ship that makes you want to yell, "Just have sex already, you morons!" is...
^_^ Ginny/Draco
14. The ship you're probably going to hell for shipping is...
Lucius/Sirius and Draco/Harry/Snape
15. The character you alternatively love to death and want to beat some sense into is...
Draco Malfoy...and although I don't normally write him, just read him, Harry Potter.
16. The character you're almost embarrassed to admit you like is...
Lucius Malfoy; he's just so...so...well to put it nicely, he's a prat.
17. Your very first fandom/ship was...
Lord of the Rings, but I wasn't a big shipper...the one I started shipping on was Harry Potter.
18. The fandom you could read any kind of fic in is...
Harry Potter
19. The fandom you would totally write an anonymous Mary Sue fic in is...
Harry Potter (gee...this is getting repetitive)
20. The show you would bring back from cancellation...
Friends

SO I had the weirdest dream EVER last night. Seriously. It was a Harry Potter dream. I never have fandom dreams! *worried look* I mean, I was Lily Potter (Harry's daughter), I think...and there were all these Aurors standing outside my door, protecting me from who-knows-what. And some of these Aurors were people from YouthWrite and it was just WEIRD. And then, a little bit before I woke up, I heard a fight outside the door, and the auror in the room with me (an Asian guy...who looked a lot like that Oracles protector dude from The Matrix) went to the door and opened AND VOLDEMORT WAS STANDING OUTSIDE MY DOOR!! Oh em gee. I just kinda stared at him for a moment and then my Auror slammed the door shut, which was then blasted into smitherines by Voldy and all I saw was this blinding green light and then...my alarm went off. How anticlimatic, hey? I want to know what happens to Lily-me! But it was all just SO WEIRD. I just kind of laid in bed for a few minutes thinking about it, and then in the shower and while I was eating breakfast and while I was driving to work. I really need to not think about Harry Potter right before I go to sleep. lol

In other news....I signed up for Residence Orientation today. Yay! I'll get to meet people! lol. It should be a good time, and useful. And maybe I'll win some food! Food is good. Mhmhmmm.

I officially move out in...two weeks and one day. Scary. And exciting. All at the same time. I haven't gotten ANYTHING to live off of yet. I mean, I don't even have a can opener. How will I be able to eat tuna without a can opener? I should get on that. But I do have a Brita water jug! Yay Brita! At least I'll have squeaky clean water. Even if I do starve. :P

If I'm moving in two weeks, that means I'm done work in one. YES! I get a whole week of freedom before I move. Sort of. It'll be spent packing and getting ready and all that fun stuff. And going to the passport office to get a passport. Yeah baby! I will officially be able to leave the country. XD

I have been so lonely lately, and I don't know why. I think part of it has to do with the fact that my cousin got married over the weekend and at the dance I had no one to dance with. Well, no that's not entirely true, I danced the butterfly with my dad's cousin and a friend, but that hardly counts - they're like family. So yesterday I was exhausted and just feeling really sad and lonely. I attribute most of that to being tired, but some of it to the fact that I have about a billion weddings this month, and no one to go with, except family. Woo. Hoo. Not to mention that I'm missing everyone from YouthWrite like crazy. It just kind of hit me yesterday: I finally have gotten the YW Hangover. Almost a month late. But I do. I think a lot of it has to do with the loneliness because its not possible to be lonely at YouthWrite. There's too much love all around you, too many frequent hugs and hug blobs and singing and dancing and just general happiness to be lonely. And maybe even an impromptu game of Honey If You Love Me. Though I usually sat out on those and just laughed at people, lol. I really hope WordsWorth goes this year, because I really want to go. Though I said that last year too and didn't get to go. It's going to be especially tough if I'm seriously going to save for Ireland, because it's quite expensive! $150 for two days, I think. That's like, food for a month! I dunno, we'll see. It'll all depend on whether or not I get a job during the school year (which I probably will...even if it's only a few hours a week.) and the pay, etc.